My ruminations and renditions on life and experiences
Are we really sick
Posted Dec 26, 2008 at 10:32 PM by valteena
When I first arrived in the uk, while registering with my GP, I did among other test, cervical cancer test. After that on a yearly basis I receive an invite for the test which I’d ignored until now..
I hadn't made it a habit of going to doctors. Maybe because I hardly ever fall ill apart from the occasional headache which I find a good night sleep takes care of.
Some call it fear or whatever, but I’ve always had this feeling that I wouldn’t want to know if I have any form of critical or terminal illness because knowing the type of person I am, the knowledge will send me to an early grave before the illness itself does.
Not to worry I eventually summoned the courage to go have the test and a full inner body check up. Nothing was found. It was all clear
But I must confess the few weeks I had to wait for the results to arrive were hellish. Was I a mess or a mess. For real, I was ill. I was not my usual bubbly self couldn’t eat properly.
I kept thinking what if the results came back positive etc. I can tell you now I don’t want to go through that kind of anxiety again .
Which leads me to wonder, how many people are actually sick. When you don't know... you aren't sick? When you know... you're sick?
What if a person keeps "not knowing?" Then all will be fine? . If I don't think I'm sick, and nobody tells me I'm sick, then I should never be sick right?
What if I leave it as it is,... then I probably will never get sick?.
I have been thinking about the entire way we view illness. If it is not all about the fear of Death. We worry about having cancer. We worry about having diabetes. We worry, worry, worry, and all the commercials, news reports, etc., don't help in the matter one bit.
Then when we are very old, we go to exhaustive lenght to prolong our lives and those of our loved ones often causing tremendous pain and discomfort in the process. All because of the fear of Death.
What if we stop worrying about Death and start thinking about Life? Won’t we be better off realising that death is just as natural as life?
Maybe we should stop spending every day in fear of death, then we can truly begin to live.
Does it ever occur to people that they are not going to die one day sooner or later than they are destined to? Nothing you do will change that. I also believe there is a tremendous sense of peace in this knowledge.
But more importantly I believe God is directing my life and I will be loved and cared for. I will take care of myself to the best of my ability and leave the part that God alone controls to him.
I hadn't made it a habit of going to doctors. Maybe because I hardly ever fall ill apart from the occasional headache which I find a good night sleep takes care of.
Some call it fear or whatever, but I’ve always had this feeling that I wouldn’t want to know if I have any form of critical or terminal illness because knowing the type of person I am, the knowledge will send me to an early grave before the illness itself does.
Not to worry I eventually summoned the courage to go have the test and a full inner body check up. Nothing was found. It was all clear
But I must confess the few weeks I had to wait for the results to arrive were hellish. Was I a mess or a mess. For real, I was ill. I was not my usual bubbly self couldn’t eat properly.
I kept thinking what if the results came back positive etc. I can tell you now I don’t want to go through that kind of anxiety again .
Which leads me to wonder, how many people are actually sick. When you don't know... you aren't sick? When you know... you're sick?
What if a person keeps "not knowing?" Then all will be fine? . If I don't think I'm sick, and nobody tells me I'm sick, then I should never be sick right?
What if I leave it as it is,... then I probably will never get sick?.
I have been thinking about the entire way we view illness. If it is not all about the fear of Death. We worry about having cancer. We worry about having diabetes. We worry, worry, worry, and all the commercials, news reports, etc., don't help in the matter one bit.
Then when we are very old, we go to exhaustive lenght to prolong our lives and those of our loved ones often causing tremendous pain and discomfort in the process. All because of the fear of Death.
What if we stop worrying about Death and start thinking about Life? Won’t we be better off realising that death is just as natural as life?
Maybe we should stop spending every day in fear of death, then we can truly begin to live.
Does it ever occur to people that they are not going to die one day sooner or later than they are destined to? Nothing you do will change that. I also believe there is a tremendous sense of peace in this knowledge.
But more importantly I believe God is directing my life and I will be loved and cared for. I will take care of myself to the best of my ability and leave the part that God alone controls to him.
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Thoughtful blog post, Valteena.
So I guess the question is - why the fear of death?
Is this really a fear of the unknown - a fear of the loss of the life that we know well?Posted Dec 26, 2008 at 11:16 PM by Shoko Loko Bangoshe
- we do live in one big world of FEAR Where death is depicted as something negative and to be feared.
This fear takes over our minds. Mind over matter... is what I call it. We believe things, once we are made privy to it, even if it is not the truth.
The power of the "mind" is unknown by many. The ole saying, "the mind is playing tricks on you" ain't lying. A person's mind will have them doing all types of crazy things...
But if we know that everything has been determined. The beginning, the middle and the end. That we're all headed in the same direction. When it's time for "our curtain to close," it's going to close. And it won't happen a minute sooner, then I guess we will lose our fear of death.
Nothing happens without it going through God. Even bad things... there's always a reason for everything.Posted Dec 27, 2008 at 02:27 AM by valteena - Anoda way of putting it...
as a man/woman thinketh in his/her mind, so is s/he.
That is powerful and has been used lots by motivational speakers and 'prosperity preachers'. Yes the mind is powerful...It helps us to focus on the things we want to become...once we do that, half the job is done.
A positive minded person too, spreads it like joy around...get into a full room with music and persons sitting all 'dignified' and start dancing 'foolishly with childish creless abandon and in a short while, the room brightens up and some might even join ya.
Very deep insights here, Vee.Posted Dec 27, 2008 at 04:29 AM by DaBishop - ValTee,
As sad as it seems, subconsciously most people go about doing things that they think will prolong their life. In order words they fear death especially death caused by sickness. "Thanatophobia they call it, The Fear of death. It's quite an interesting phenomenon.
And you are not alone. I recently had to undergo some series of test for official purposes. Even though I had being doing all I thought was right to be disease free. Boy was I scared. But knowing me I play out every situation in my life right before it occurs, good or bad. So I played out the worst case scenario and the best. Thank God, all came back perfect. It could have been the opposite and no matter how one pretends, the knowledge of a deadly disease living in one's body just about shortens one's life span. This I have observed. May God arm us with positive thoughts on life, and reed us all from "Thanatophobia". AmenPosted Dec 27, 2008 at 04:28 PM by Eye_Catcher - Very thought provoking piece Val. I agree that people are walking around with all kinds of pill bottles and probably aren't even sick.
Some people think they have "bipolar disorder," only because they were told they do. What if they had a few off days, or became mad a few times, with an outburst here, and an outburst there. So instead of it just being ticked off over something they are diagnosed with an illness?
What if they don't have anything? What if it is FEAR and the medication that is taking the lives of some? What if a person is taking medication, and nothing is actually wrong?
I cannot get past the fact that if we do not know about the existence of something, then that something does not exist.
Thus if a person is not told that they have, for example, breast cancer, then do they have breast cancer? If you don't think you do, then you don't. If you think you do, then you do
If a person is not told that they have Lupus, then do they have lupus? These are things that we cannot see, and these are things that we are not made aware of, until someone tells us.
What if we are not told? Do we have it? My guess is no.Posted Dec 27, 2008 at 10:59 PM by Idahota
